Hope

Have you ever had a rough time in life, and one day you hear a song that just speaks to you?  Today was that day for me.  I have been having said rough time for five months now, ever since I had a miscarriage at the end of October, and I thought I was doing better, but lately I've been struggling, feeling pessimistic, lost, hopeless...today I felt a glimmer of hope.  I was driving back to work from yet another meeting, the sun was out, it was warm and my window was down.  I was listening to my favorite artist, Joshua Radin, and the song The Rock and the Tide came on my iPhone.  I've heard this song many, many times, but today it spoke to my heart.

See a mountain, see an ocean,

see the years that bring rock and tide close together.

Settle down, I said to myself

Things that come with time

Will always be better

Sometimes lyrics and music come together with a moment in your life and clear your vision.  It's been so hard for me to struggle month after month, to see other women succeed so easily, and to feel so lonely in my loss. I'm by no means okay, but this was a timely reminder that one day, when we have the family we so desire, we'll be all the more grateful and see that all the heartache was worth it. Even that small spark of hope can carry us through.